Getting out of a rut!

Tonight was a turning point in my life. All day i have felt enveloped with the computer and for the past month has been a struggle spiritually, mentally, & physically. Moving to a new location has affected me greatly. I did not know why i was struggling so bad, until tonight. I went into my room and the television was on, i was so rattled inside that i had a hard time deciding if i should turn it off and calm my mind or leave the thing on. Well i made the right decision, and turned the monster off lol. With my dog (bella) by my side she always sleeps with me anyhow i laid there thinking, many thoughts were entering my mind and not all good thoughts, but i realized that my thoughts were clearing out. So much clutter how can i possibly see the truth. After about 15 minutes or so i turned the light off and began to get in a spiritual zone as i like to call it.

As i was sitting in the dark i could feel a presence in the room with me, i began asking questions and letting this spirit know that i know he is there. I heard in my mind "Die" i said no then i heard "Get Out" and this was a little unsettling but i did not fear whatever was there, i asked the spirit if he needed any help, it said "No this is my house" I spoke and said no i live here and you are no longer alive you have died. This whole time i was communicating with this entity i was getting chills up and down my spine.

I realized that this spirit was affecting my judgment in some way once i realized this i was able to do what i needed to do and push the negativity away from me. I asked God for help and said i cannot do this alone. I felt God's Love with me for the first time since i moved into this house.

I said some affirmations, to help me become more aware of my egos, and forgot how much i used to work on myself, being aware of the many egos that surface. As of late my egos have done whatever they wanted and this has clouded my judgment. And it is mainly because i became lazy and stopped using the tools that were given to me from God.

I then prayed whole heartily i cant remember the last time my prayer was so sincere, how good this felt it felt like i was free again. Next i meditated and again for the first time in a while i was actually able to see faces of people during a meditation session, it was almost like the people in these visions were going about their business, without any knowledge of me being able to see them. I used to see many faces in the past never understood who they where or why i saw these faces. But i know it's important.

Life can be confusing at times, but when that realization happens and you understand why you are feeling the way you are, it is very Enlightening. By no means do i blame any Spirit or anything else for my confusion, i take full response-ability for my well being. If i can stay humble and realize that i cannot live life Rightly with my own willpower, because i have the tendency to become lazy, and slack on taking my spiritual medicine. We have so many tools at our disposal so that we may protect ourselves from bad habits.

Many Blessings

Many Blessings :Hello:

Great post. I myself have felt spirits around me. Sometimes they are negitive. I called on god to protect me from them, and he always answers me.