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Post by thethoughtfulmuse08 on May 11th 2014, 5:32 pm

Hi, I'm Jenna. Roughly 8 months ago things began to change for me. At the time I wasn't aware of it, and I thought I was losing myself. Everything that I once liked I didn't like anymore. At times I was really depressed. Then things would get better. I started to have a lot of trouble remembering things. I even had trouble sometimes remembering things during the same day. I started to forget stuff I wanted to say during conversation as well. That really bothered me. Up until that point my memory was fantastic! Then this happened and I thought I was going crazy. Even though I'm in my 20s I thought I was developing Alzheimer's at times. I didn't really think that I was, but it felt like it at times. I was going to classes in college and I decided to take 4 that semester even though I hadn't taken 4 in one semester before. I began to miss classes. I felt like I was 'failing' myself. I couldn't believe that I wanted to give up. That's never been me. I ended up dropping one class and things seemed to get better. I started trying to go to classes, but I was still having trouble. My memory was bad to the point where I missed a major due date for a project because I thought I read a different day. I could have sworn that I saw a different date, but when I looked it up after it passed, it said another date. My professor said that it had always been that date. I was so upset and confused. 

After new years things sped up a lot. I started to change even more. I feel like last fall was 'preparing' me for this change that I experienced not much later. I started noticing different things in the world. My memory came back a bit. I felt better, but I realized that I did not think exactly as before. I decided I needed to come to terms with this change and things started getting better. My memory still isn't quite as good as it once was, but I'm finding out that it doesn't need to be anymore. I'm learning to let go and experience things. If I absolutely need to remember something I'll make a reminder so that I won't forget later. I have really become interested in music. I've always loved music throughout my life so far, but now I 'feel' it. When I listen to music I feel the beats as if they were coming from me. Music has become a very powerful and important thing in my life. I also enjoy writing journals and such. I've written for hours at times! I feel as if I just can't get enough down and I feel as if I need to express myself and find creative ways to do so. For once in my life I feel joy and peace. I'd been irritable, angry, sad, and occasionally happy (although it was more excitement than true happiness) before, but now I'm enjoying myself and everything around me. I feel so much calmer. I feel more connected with everything too.

I've had interesting dreams; one in specific that felt very spiritual and I feel as if it awakened me or at least provided me the means to. During all of this I developed an interesting feeling towards someone whom I had never met. I couldn't quite explain it at the time, but signs would appear from time to time. Now, I am engaged, so at times I felt bad because I felt as if something was being brought into the light it I didn't want to accept it fully. An opportunity came up to meet this person, and I decided to take it. The day I met him was so weird. It felt almost dreamlike. I couldn't put my finger on it. When his eyes met mine something happened. It felt like we 'recognized' each other. I didn't believe in twin flames before I met this man. I had read about them, but the idea at the time didn't seem real. 

Ever since meeting him weird things have started happening. I am awakening even quicker. In my dreams I feel a sense of knowing. I'm not really quite sure how to explain it. It's as if I know what's happening, and I'm not lucid dreaming. I'm not sure what they are. I asked for a sign the other day because I was starting to doubt and deny this connection and that night in my dreams I feel as if I actually received a sign. I'm feeling lots of heat in the majority of my chakras, especially in my heart chakra. Sometimes I feel him with me. This is all very new to me and I feel that all of this was supposed to happen, but my mind does not seem to want to accept it because it feels so unreal. I'm trying to live my life at the time and see what happens. So many new things have happened in these past months that are hard to explain and I'm not exactly sure what to make out of it all. I want to write more, but I feel as if I've already written quite a bit.
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Re: Hello

Post by Blackcrow on May 11th 2014, 5:58 pm

Hello and welcome to the site  Welcome 


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Post by Arbel on May 12th 2014, 2:58 am

The spiritual vibrations are changing so it is possible you are being affected by the vibrations as they affect everyone differently; your statement of in my dreams I feel a sense of knowing.  Basically the sense of knowing is saying the knowledge you need is already within you and the knowledge comes to the surface when needed



 

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Post by Aussiepom on May 12th 2014, 7:20 am

Welcome to the site.....
Lovely to see new members join this great site....

It is quiet at the moment so we are hoping the members will expand.

You sound very confused but our friend Arbel here will keep you right.....

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Post by thethoughtfulmuse08 on May 18th 2014, 7:30 pm

Thanks for the warm welcomes everyone  Smile
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Post by Aussiepom on May 19th 2014, 3:42 am

You're very welcome.....any more future members for here,please encourage to register.....
We aim to get this site going again...

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